Marriage and stuff

So my boyfriend and I decided to get married sooner rather than later. It's one of those don't ask, don't tell things. We had only dated for about six months, but we knew that we were right for each other and we didn't want anyone else.

Bad thing about this: after some deep conversations with my new husband, even though he makes me feel beautiful in every way, I found out that when we were first starting to hang out as friends, that he wasn't attracted to me physically.

Which on some level is not a bad thing, he saw me for ' me ' and fell in love with that person, and the physical connection came later.

I guess I just never wanted to hear that he wasn't attracted to me when we first met. I wanted to hear how cute he thought I was, or how I had beautiful eyes and a great bust line and an ass that he just wanted to smack! But I didn't count on him dropping a bomb on me. At least I know he loves me for me, and not because of some superficial BS.

We are living in separate places right now, simply because of money issues. Which is a terrible way to start a marriage in my mind. So, I get to go over to his one room apartment and watch him play video games most of the time and eat food that should be packed in a kids lunch box instead of going into my mouth.

I am in a rutt when it comes to my weight loss right now. On the scale I have lost 10 pounds, but I feel like it should be coming off more rapidly. I rotate my eating habbits in that sometimes I will go two or three days and just eat vegetables and then I will eat chicken or fish for a few days and back and forth and so on. I am not sure what I need to do right now to continue to lose weight, but as soon as it starts coming off in a more consisntent manner, I will let you know what I am doing!